There's Nothing left

I have no right to any thoughts or feelings. Consider them suppressed until further notice.
There are some aspects of my personality that I need to reconcile before I will be comfortable being me again. For what it's worth, I will fix this or die trying. I will accept no other outcome.
I love you and I am sorry for the distance. I am still a stupid child fumbling my way across this life. This is no excuse, merely an apology --- though the coherency of it is questionable. I am sorry.