I Feel Empty Inside

They say its better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all. However, I disagree. Cuz love gives you hope. Hope that maybe you aren't as terrible as you think you are. Hope that maybe its possible for someone as messed up as you to be happy. And then just like that, its all torn why. No explanations, no chance to fix it. The fragile glass you've been building your happiness upon shatters and everything comes crashing down. Back down into that dark abyss. But now that you know what its like on top, you cant stand to be back on the bottom. To feel this hollow, empty feeling. This stupid numbness. These tears that won't stop falling. These voices that wont stop calling. You feel hopeless and defeated. Yet does anyone even care?