I Push People Away Even When I Dont Want to
Well, in this case I'm not sure if I want to or not.
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I feel bad. On EP I made some friends... I lost contact with almost all of them, I still contact them once in a veryyy loooooooong while.
Anyways.
One of those friends was this dude called Ezra. He was cool, actually I was the one tho wanted to be his friend back then on EP. We would talk on PMs on EP, so we became sorta close... We even added each other on kik, where we still kept talking...we didn't really talk about something meaningful, just something random, so I didn't feel like there was a connection with him... He was just a friend to talk to whenever he or I felt like to. Slowly I stopped replying him tho. But before this, I had already given him my snapchat, so we had added each other too.
Like I stopped replying to him... He contacted me on snapchat. I decided to reply him bc I was bored, honestly. He would talk to me quite often, but like I just did to be polite and nice to him. Slowly, again, I stopped replying him again.
Not much long ago, he talked to me again on snapchat. I had stopped seeing his messages, but out of the blue one of those days I read them. In one of them, he asked how come I didn't want to talk to him.
That made feel so bad.
I replied to him, obviously... Excusing myself, saying I was busy, which is not true. I mean, I don't feel a connection with him. We don't have stuff to talk about, like really. We just talk about random stuff... I don't feel like talking to him and this makes me feel bad because he wants to keep in with me. I always complain for people leaving me and forgetting about me. But in this case, it's quite the opposite. I still feel like there's no reason to keep talking, bu I feel like I should. I really wish we had stuff in common, or at least one of us was i tears ting enough since I'm a terrible conversationalist.
Well, yeah... That was it. I always push good people away, people who care about me. FML. KMS.
Thnx 4 reading.
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I feel bad. On EP I made some friends... I lost contact with almost all of them, I still contact them once in a veryyy loooooooong while.
Anyways.
One of those friends was this dude called Ezra. He was cool, actually I was the one tho wanted to be his friend back then on EP. We would talk on PMs on EP, so we became sorta close... We even added each other on kik, where we still kept talking...we didn't really talk about something meaningful, just something random, so I didn't feel like there was a connection with him... He was just a friend to talk to whenever he or I felt like to. Slowly I stopped replying him tho. But before this, I had already given him my snapchat, so we had added each other too.
Like I stopped replying to him... He contacted me on snapchat. I decided to reply him bc I was bored, honestly. He would talk to me quite often, but like I just did to be polite and nice to him. Slowly, again, I stopped replying him again.
Not much long ago, he talked to me again on snapchat. I had stopped seeing his messages, but out of the blue one of those days I read them. In one of them, he asked how come I didn't want to talk to him.
That made feel so bad.
I replied to him, obviously... Excusing myself, saying I was busy, which is not true. I mean, I don't feel a connection with him. We don't have stuff to talk about, like really. We just talk about random stuff... I don't feel like talking to him and this makes me feel bad because he wants to keep in with me. I always complain for people leaving me and forgetting about me. But in this case, it's quite the opposite. I still feel like there's no reason to keep talking, bu I feel like I should. I really wish we had stuff in common, or at least one of us was i tears ting enough since I'm a terrible conversationalist.
Well, yeah... That was it. I always push good people away, people who care about me. FML. KMS.
Thnx 4 reading.
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