I Want To Amount To Something
I graduated college with a bachelors in Music in 2015, and can’t even use the degree because it was in music concentration and my goal was never to teach. I left there not knowing where to take the degree next because I was not considered standard, and I couldn’t afford anymore lessons. Now I haven’t played for quite some time, and I feel ashamed of it, because music is a part of me.
Now I’m just living in the world, working and trying to survive. And since I haven’t played in a while, it’s going to be harder to pick back up when I have more time to play...if I ever get back to that point.
I work 40 hours per week at a job I can’t stand, and I’m taking a class online for a field I didn’t study so I can get out of my current job. At least in the new field I’ll feel as though I’m actually helping people, even though it’s behind the scenes. The current job is tech support customer service, and I’ve been doing it since July. It sucks, because I’m listening to people yell and cuss about their internet and cable being down. It’s not fun. And on top of that, I have to try and sell them stuff, which is not what I signed up for. At least I get commission...but it’s not really worth it.
I want to amount to something. I don’t want to work 40 hours at a job that makes me miserable. I want to feel like I’m actually making a difference, and not have to listen to people get angry. And I want to have more time for my passions, such as music and writing. And I want to have time to play with my dog, who is getting old and his joints are stiffer as the years go by. He’s 12 now...and I have worked for most of his life. I want it all to just slow down for once so I can finally enjoy it. We take all these little things in life for granted. One day, we’re going to miss being able to do them.
I wasted my time on many things and on many levels. If I could go back knowing what I know now, I would choose a different field, and instead use whatever money I had to pay for music lessons. Maybe in a new field (whatever that may have been), I would have excelled, and been able to afford the things I do desperately need.
Of course, I shouldn’t dwell so much on what I should have done. Focusing on the present is all I can do now. I’m trying to make a better future for myself by doing something different. Survival is key. Achieving something I never thought I would even think of achieving...is going to lead me down a path that could open up a better future. Sometimes we have to change and adapt in order to succeed. This new trade will add variety to my resume. I will prove that I am not ordinary.
Now I’m just living in the world, working and trying to survive. And since I haven’t played in a while, it’s going to be harder to pick back up when I have more time to play...if I ever get back to that point.
I work 40 hours per week at a job I can’t stand, and I’m taking a class online for a field I didn’t study so I can get out of my current job. At least in the new field I’ll feel as though I’m actually helping people, even though it’s behind the scenes. The current job is tech support customer service, and I’ve been doing it since July. It sucks, because I’m listening to people yell and cuss about their internet and cable being down. It’s not fun. And on top of that, I have to try and sell them stuff, which is not what I signed up for. At least I get commission...but it’s not really worth it.
I want to amount to something. I don’t want to work 40 hours at a job that makes me miserable. I want to feel like I’m actually making a difference, and not have to listen to people get angry. And I want to have more time for my passions, such as music and writing. And I want to have time to play with my dog, who is getting old and his joints are stiffer as the years go by. He’s 12 now...and I have worked for most of his life. I want it all to just slow down for once so I can finally enjoy it. We take all these little things in life for granted. One day, we’re going to miss being able to do them.
I wasted my time on many things and on many levels. If I could go back knowing what I know now, I would choose a different field, and instead use whatever money I had to pay for music lessons. Maybe in a new field (whatever that may have been), I would have excelled, and been able to afford the things I do desperately need.
Of course, I shouldn’t dwell so much on what I should have done. Focusing on the present is all I can do now. I’m trying to make a better future for myself by doing something different. Survival is key. Achieving something I never thought I would even think of achieving...is going to lead me down a path that could open up a better future. Sometimes we have to change and adapt in order to succeed. This new trade will add variety to my resume. I will prove that I am not ordinary.
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