I Have Given Up

Pretty much. I'm kind of running on autopilot (and I can do a very convincing, cheery, energetic autopilot) for my daughter. Shes four months old so she doesn't know I'm on auto. Inside, I just feel kind of numb, like I'm just coming out all the time. The stress of waiting for my daughter's heart operation was too much already, then finding out it's been postponed because of overbooking was the nail in the coffin really