I Am the Family Scapegoat
I am the oldest, and I am the stepchild. My "natural" father died when I was 2 so I never knew him. Being the oldest and a stepchild just made me an easy target to blame when things went wrong. Its sad, but I am just now coming to the realization that its not okay. I hate the thought of giving up on my family, but when I stand up for myself I am the bad guy. So I have to put myself first and say goodbye to my family. I am sad for me, its a loss, but I deserve to heal and I cannot do that with the constant negativity and blame.