I Feel Lost

When my ex bf wanted me back a few weeks ago, i declined because he didnt treat me well last year. He just said cool and never texted me back again. Im happy he doesn't bug me anymore but once again, he made me feel rubbish and lost.

I wax very happy , felt stronger at the beginning of 2018 until he contacted me again saying Happy new year. I should have ghosted him instead of replying!

My sister also tore into me saying why were u even talking to him when he disrespected you last year? I felt small and stupid.

I feel very down about myself. I feel undeserving of being loved.

And to the men on SRW, if u wanna just chat with intentions to abuse my vulnerabilities - just DON'T, I will block you without doubts. I ain't dumb. Thanks.

greenmountaingal · 70-79, F

Just don't communicate with him. It sounds like he fishes,casts out his line, and sees what he can catch. If he can get you back with minimal effort, he'll do it. I know it must hurt that he cares so little and you cared a lot--But he can't be changed and so far he has only hurt you. Too bad your family is not too supportive, but at least your sister knows he's an uncaring jerk.