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I Am More Than Just Broken, I'm Damaged

Now that it's been just hours after she's gone I felt like I could've handled it but now I'm thinking this whole experience of 6 years and the care and love is gonna leave a mark which will not heal . Somewhere deep inside my mind and heart I'll still remember every good thing about her her eyes her smile her beautiful laugh :p her crazy jokes her nature the things we used to do together how she helped me and I helped her every moment will now be leaving a mark that'll show how damaged I am. I just hope I will be able to coverup this damage I don't want other people to see this but I now know that I have to lock this part away Somewhere deep in my mind and heart and its tough hours are feeling like ages :( feeling exhausted and sad about all this

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queen49

I know this was posted in July, but things WILL get better. Maybe they already have. Or maybe you still have a lot of time left before you can look back and wonder what was going on in your head. But it will. You will come out better because of it and everything will be fine. Just give it time and patience. Let yourself feel all the emotions through. Everyone deserves a chance to get through the grieving process. Just think, this taught you how to love and appreciate. How beautiful and wonderful is that?

milind3012 · 26-30, M

thank you for the response it was posted in July but still its September and things are not looking good at all :p I thought things couldn't go more worse

queen49

what became worse?

milind3012 · 26-30, M

idk everything probably I'm not concentrating in work I'm back at college but days feel like so long and dull I don't know how to say this but I'm just not able to cope up with all this probably

queen49

well you were with her for 6yrs. makes sense honestly. Just give it time. work on yourself. hang out with friends. Just dedicate this time for you.

milind3012 · 26-30, M

yeah I mostly stay alone with my earphones everyday its like I don't want to hear what's happening outside I dont know if I'm working on myself properly to get out of this situation or not

queen49

It sounds like you answered yourself. just the fact that you yourself question if that is a proper way to deal with it all tells you something. You wouldn't be having that worry if it wasn't at least partly true

milind3012 · 26-30, M

yeah I'm just trying to find different ways to get back :p so far not many have worked

queen49

what have you tried?

milind3012 · 26-30, M

I've tried not talking to her diverting my mind trying to concentrate on something else other than her but in the end somewhere in the back of my mind she's still there I don't know why I care for her that much