I Am a Drug Addict
Well here is another story about, yup you guessed it, Nick. I know I am sometimes bitter towards him but lately I have been thinking about what we had in a different light. Not like he was a drug addict and he wasn't down for me like I was him. But rather more about the honesty we shared between us. I knew all his secrets and loved him anyway. We had an honesty between us that was amazing and scary at the same time. He was so honest with me, there were things he shared with me that I could have lived my entire life without knowing and be alright.
The truth will set you free...but first it will piss you off...
And that couldn't be more true. I was disappointed initially, but now I can see that he said no because he cared so much about me. He knew he was dying, he didn't want me to be there for that, he didn't want me to go through that, even though he knew I would have been there until the very end, right beside him, holding his hand has he passed. He knew I loved him that much, but he loved me that much too.
I think about him often and yes there is still love in my heart for him, but I know that part of my life is long gone and I have moved on. Every now and again I need to reflect on the past and think about it in a different light, more realistically. I didn't ask him for more than he could give me, he gave me everything he had to give. And for that Nick I will always love you...
The truth will set you free...but first it will piss you off...
And that couldn't be more true. I was disappointed initially, but now I can see that he said no because he cared so much about me. He knew he was dying, he didn't want me to be there for that, he didn't want me to go through that, even though he knew I would have been there until the very end, right beside him, holding his hand has he passed. He knew I loved him that much, but he loved me that much too.
I think about him often and yes there is still love in my heart for him, but I know that part of my life is long gone and I have moved on. Every now and again I need to reflect on the past and think about it in a different light, more realistically. I didn't ask him for more than he could give me, he gave me everything he had to give. And for that Nick I will always love you...
