I Am a Drug Addict

Hello. My name is Michelle and I am an addict. I want to stop but I know I can't. I know if its there I will do it. Got to change my people places and things, yes I know but I just can't do that right now, I am kind of stuck. But even getting away will not get it out of my head. I thought to myself today, "where do i want to be in my head with G" i don't want to think about it i don't want to miss it but i do think about it and i do miss it. I mean things are changing, he was changing and I didn't like it but I can't control him I can't make him do anything. Robotripping is such a pleasant high. I don't know what to do, I am desperately trying to stay grounded in reality because that makes sense. It is what it is and I am no idiot. I just guess I didn't think it would ever end and then I am left to guess at why it ended. I tried to move on but it didn't seem feasible. Too much effort on my part, can't afford it either. Maybe this is just the ranting of an addict and it's not supposed to make sense but then again maybe it does. At least I didn't cry today.