I Just Realized
My friend just told me that the reason that the women I have been pursuing (IRL for relationships) haven't been working out because they're not my type
I asked her what my type is, and she told me my type is the "sweet innocent virgin type"
Apparently she can usually tell just by looking at pictures, and those were always the girls that I liked the most and was fascinated by even though I didn't actually know they were virgins (she insists she can tell)
Thinking back, that's what I always wanted, but I decided that I wasn't worthy of what I really wanted and tried for something else
I'm gentle and loving, scary strong but a protector and not a danger, and want a deep bond of love, absolutely adore when a woman is clingy because she really likes me, totally love being playful and I like to be old fashioned
Would a woman of that type ever give me a chance? Looking deep down, that really is what I want
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I totally just realized, the type of women that I like best really do like me, I just live in the US where there's not a lot of innocence left, a lot of that type that are too young liked me (off the table because I'm not willing to meeting Bubba in prison), women from countries where abstinence until marriage is common liked me, and the few times I got to know a sweet innocent virgin that was of age and lived near to me I felt like I wasn't good enough and I was terrified out of my mind thinking I would get hurt or mess up because I didn't feel good enough and knew I would fall in love too hard to fast
It all makes sense now, I'm sure I'll meet one again, I just need to realize that they do actually like me (always have until I blew it) and not be afraid, not worry about being good enough and just treat them well, and it will work out
I asked her what my type is, and she told me my type is the "sweet innocent virgin type"
Apparently she can usually tell just by looking at pictures, and those were always the girls that I liked the most and was fascinated by even though I didn't actually know they were virgins (she insists she can tell)
Thinking back, that's what I always wanted, but I decided that I wasn't worthy of what I really wanted and tried for something else
I'm gentle and loving, scary strong but a protector and not a danger, and want a deep bond of love, absolutely adore when a woman is clingy because she really likes me, totally love being playful and I like to be old fashioned
Would a woman of that type ever give me a chance? Looking deep down, that really is what I want
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I totally just realized, the type of women that I like best really do like me, I just live in the US where there's not a lot of innocence left, a lot of that type that are too young liked me (off the table because I'm not willing to meeting Bubba in prison), women from countries where abstinence until marriage is common liked me, and the few times I got to know a sweet innocent virgin that was of age and lived near to me I felt like I wasn't good enough and I was terrified out of my mind thinking I would get hurt or mess up because I didn't feel good enough and knew I would fall in love too hard to fast
It all makes sense now, I'm sure I'll meet one again, I just need to realize that they do actually like me (always have until I blew it) and not be afraid, not worry about being good enough and just treat them well, and it will work out
