I Will Take As Many Words As I Want To Write This Story
I joined EP just about 6 years ago, and have been consistent with EP, SW, and related boards since then. At the time, I was upset because all was not well between me and my partner in the bedroom.
Now, 6 years later, that looks like the good old days. Since then, the following things have happened:
- lost two jobs;
- moved 80 miles away from my partner, thinking that would help;
- dated men who didn’t work out;
- lost a pet;
- lost my country to the crazy people;
- lost my mother to cancer;
- And - last year - almost died of the flu, and then had pneumonia.
I feel pretty traumatized - although I think that a lot of my problems are my own fault. I did a lot of this to myself, so I don’t feel I really have a right to complain. If I could have back the life I had in 2013, I would be so grateful. It was so much better than now.
Now, I’m between jobs again, and am in the process of trying to rebuild the relationship with my partner. He has agreed to try us again. I’m moving back in with him next week and will continue job hunting in that area.
I have a lot of anxiety these days. I used to be so adventurous and passionate. Now, I feel like a totally different person. I have no spirit of adventure left anymore. None. The events of the past few years have taken that out of me. If the rest of my life is boring, that’s just fine with me. Boring is good. Maybe it’s time to learn how to be a nice old lady.
Now, 6 years later, that looks like the good old days. Since then, the following things have happened:
- lost two jobs;
- moved 80 miles away from my partner, thinking that would help;
- dated men who didn’t work out;
- lost a pet;
- lost my country to the crazy people;
- lost my mother to cancer;
- And - last year - almost died of the flu, and then had pneumonia.
I feel pretty traumatized - although I think that a lot of my problems are my own fault. I did a lot of this to myself, so I don’t feel I really have a right to complain. If I could have back the life I had in 2013, I would be so grateful. It was so much better than now.
Now, I’m between jobs again, and am in the process of trying to rebuild the relationship with my partner. He has agreed to try us again. I’m moving back in with him next week and will continue job hunting in that area.
I have a lot of anxiety these days. I used to be so adventurous and passionate. Now, I feel like a totally different person. I have no spirit of adventure left anymore. None. The events of the past few years have taken that out of me. If the rest of my life is boring, that’s just fine with me. Boring is good. Maybe it’s time to learn how to be a nice old lady.
