a bad mental day
started drinking tequila at 7am.
laid down on the couch at 12:30pm.
kicked out my foot.
caught my bong...tipped over..bong water all over the carpet.
feeling like a human form of existential crisis.
Living off of 90 dollars a week, which is mostly food and gas.
makeup? nope. just leftovers. clothes? Homeless style.
I grocery shop at dollar tree.
As my mom dropped off my 2nd bottle of tequila, I leaned on the car window, in the nice sun and breeze, and I told her I give up.
7 months single.....now realizing I used my BFs as motivation. without them.....I feel zero purpose.
Its like....trying to walk again...
I feel like a toddler....a basic, no skills, toddler.
I am not even to the point where I shower on weekends.
I work 8-5 Mon thru Fri. after that I ...... die.
spend the next two days unshowered. I dont leave the apt.
Completely lost myself and trying to just get back to normal human basics.
so bear with me.
this is bottom.
laid down on the couch at 12:30pm.
kicked out my foot.
caught my bong...tipped over..bong water all over the carpet.
feeling like a human form of existential crisis.
Living off of 90 dollars a week, which is mostly food and gas.
makeup? nope. just leftovers. clothes? Homeless style.
I grocery shop at dollar tree.
As my mom dropped off my 2nd bottle of tequila, I leaned on the car window, in the nice sun and breeze, and I told her I give up.
7 months single.....now realizing I used my BFs as motivation. without them.....I feel zero purpose.
Its like....trying to walk again...
I feel like a toddler....a basic, no skills, toddler.
I am not even to the point where I shower on weekends.
I work 8-5 Mon thru Fri. after that I ...... die.
spend the next two days unshowered. I dont leave the apt.
Completely lost myself and trying to just get back to normal human basics.
so bear with me.
this is bottom.
36-40, F
