I Feel Deeply and Often Get Hurt Because of It

This has been a month of losses.
A boyfriend, friends.
I feel so hurt. They were special for me but they just walked away. I didn't do anything wrong to them. Yet they couldn't be honest at least. That made me keep waiting and hoping for them to return. I don't want to keep waiting. I am tired... I'm tired of giving my best and getting hurt like this...
Feels like I died and I don't even know how is that I'm still here, feels like I am numb after so much pain.