I Want To Diee

I have great parents they brought me up well and i had a happy childhood up untill i was about 10 years old. In which i was sexually abused by a stranger in the changing rooms whilst was at the swimming pool with my school. I froze in fear when it happened and didnt tell anyone untill i was 22 when the love of my life and my son softened me up after years of anger and hatred.

A year later i lost them both in a car accident in which i found out by a phone call after being at work. My whole world fell apart. I took drugs and alcohol daily to try to numb the pain i built up thousands of pounds of debt, which now i am coming back around i am struggling to pay off and praying everynight that god takes me and sometimes even satan can take me just aslong as it ends.

I hate life and am switched off from everyone i come into contact with i'm sure there are many others who like me let the world believe that how i look to them is happy, full of life and confident when i actually am sad, alone and waiting for the end just know your not alone.