I Have Too Much Empathy and Guilt

[c=#7700B2]I don't know what is going on with me lately.
I have always had a difficult time getting the thoughts out of my head and sound like they are in my head. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone but it is like having the perfect words in your head and when I try saying or writing it out load, it all comes out like a jumbled mess..

anyway I am only saying that part to get out what I am trying to write and hope it comes out the way I want It too and if it doesn't make much sense, that is the reason why..

For as long as I remember I have always had so much empathy towards people, like if I see someone upset, I would get upset and things like that.. lately though it has been like something has changed in me and that doesn't happen anymore, I mean it does with people I care about but before I would be like that with strangers and I feel that is a reason why I am pretty good at my job because I could relate somewhat and be very empathetic.
It is like a switch inside of me has been turned off lately and I just don't care anymore and just cant relate to people in a way I felt I could before and I want to say I feel bad because of that and know I should.. but I don't

hopefully it is just some sort of hormonal thing and goes away and I can go back to being myself again but it is also nice not to care for a change and I feel lighter in a way..

Anyone go through something like this before?[/c]

Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

I've had that happen also in the last couple of years. I'm not sure if it's just a symptom of maturity, like you still care but you're not as emotionally reactive as you were and don't really 'feel' it like before.

PlumBerries · 31-35, F

@Ryannnnnn [c=#7700B2]yeah still care but not close to the amount previously cared[/c]

Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

@PlumBerries https://similarworlds.com/6314366-I-Dont-Know-How-to-Break-Down-My-Defensive-Wall/2605665-Its-rare-that-I-actually-have-anything-serious-to
I literally posted about the same thing.

I know when I was worried that what comforted me was that in some moments such as remembering a very emotional memory or relationship i'd feel something like I did then, so it's still there but we're just a lot more in control. Maybe this is the process of learning that control.