I Am Miserable

My wife has been out of work for two years due to mental illness issues. She finally started her return to work, and it has been going better than we ever could have hoped.

Last she went into a kind of a cold trance and made it clear if left alone she'd kill herself, and spent a while talking about the ways. I have not slept as I forced myself to stay awake all night to periodically check on her to make sure she didn't hurt herself.

The episode passed and she's now asleep and doing okay. So everything is okay there. Meanwhile, I'm a goddamn wreck, can't focus on anything, and am currently trying to stay awake for a job where because of changes in management I literally have nothing to do for a couple of weeks.