I Have No Friends

Of course, as a little kid, I was fairly social with my friends. Then middle school came around, and it was particularly in 8th grade when I started realizing I had no friends. My friends always leave me out of events, and purposely leave me out of conversations. One day during gym class, that was all i could think about. I started bawling my eyes out,and i just sat there crying. After my emotional wreck, i went up to them and directly told them "If you do not like me, say it." They still lied to my face. I felt so useless and vulnerable, after realizing how much i relied on them. Than, I started going solo. Sitting by myself during lunch, and just separating myself from them made me feel good. So good. I started getting better grades, and it felt nice to not depend on what someone else thinks of you. If I were to be perfectly honest, I enjoyed being alone more than hanging out with friends.