@PrivateHell When you are in your own “private hell” you never consider these things. You are so desperate your mind only focuses on relief. Permanent relief.
I think about it, too. All the time. No, the soul doesn't go to hell. And yes, I'll be mourned and missed, at least for a while. But they will NOT understand why I chose to end the life of my body, which is all it is. Our lives are eternal. I am very much looking forward to leaving behind this boat anchor.