I Want To Be In A DDLG Relationship
YES!!! This has been my dream since I knew such a thing existed. I have had very complex, drawn-out fantasies of being in this type of relationship since before puberty, although back then I was incapable of getting "turned on" (in the adult sense.) I found abnormal amounts of pleasure in always getting to be the "handicapped baby" whenever my friends and I would play house, but I absolutely hated being the mom. This dynamic has carried over completely into adulthood for me, as I don't have (and don't want) children, but still long to [i]be[/i] the child myself in romantic relationships. For a long time I pursued this, dating only women for a time because I thought they might be more nurturing and maternal than men. My first serious girlfriend, whom I dated when I was 21, was 34 years old and a (non-custodial) mother of two. I longed for her to treat me the way she treated her kids, but it never happened. It was many months into our relationship before I told her of my multiple fetishes, of which she ended up not approving. She wouldn't indulge them at all and didn't even want to hear about them, so I stopped being intimate with her (since I am basically asexual anyway.) She cheated on me and we broke up soon thereafter.
I have never been able to find someone- male or female- with that nurturing, maternal/paternal vibe that is my "dream trait in a mate," although I am currently in a relationship with someone who shares some of my other fetishes. While I love my current girlfriend dearly, I wish she was more nurturing, dominating, and into the AB scene. While none of those things are true of her, she is still quite willing to keep me in diapers once we are living together as she, too, is a DL (I won't wear diapers unless forced, because the forced aspect is what I crave about being diapered. Also, she lives in Europe and I live in the US at this time.)
I have long accepted that I'll probably never get what I really want because I know it is unrealistic. While that makes me sad and a little bitter at times, it is what it is and the best thing for me to do is to move on with me life. But I do still live out my fantasies in the stories I write for my personal enjoyment, where I can be as helpless, loved, and cared for as I need to be to finally experience true happiness. A happiness, it seems, that life will never be able to afford me.
I have never been able to find someone- male or female- with that nurturing, maternal/paternal vibe that is my "dream trait in a mate," although I am currently in a relationship with someone who shares some of my other fetishes. While I love my current girlfriend dearly, I wish she was more nurturing, dominating, and into the AB scene. While none of those things are true of her, she is still quite willing to keep me in diapers once we are living together as she, too, is a DL (I won't wear diapers unless forced, because the forced aspect is what I crave about being diapered. Also, she lives in Europe and I live in the US at this time.)
I have long accepted that I'll probably never get what I really want because I know it is unrealistic. While that makes me sad and a little bitter at times, it is what it is and the best thing for me to do is to move on with me life. But I do still live out my fantasies in the stories I write for my personal enjoyment, where I can be as helpless, loved, and cared for as I need to be to finally experience true happiness. A happiness, it seems, that life will never be able to afford me.
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