I am a hard-core loner. By this I mean that I am much more of a loner than probably 99% of people who consider themselves loners. Most loners have a few close friends or family members they are extremely close to. I have never really had any friends, nor have I felt any lack on this account. I find human companionship utterly unnecessary, and I want to avoid human enmeshment at all costs. Although I have a decent family, too much togetherness even with them can be toxic to me. I need solitude like I need air to breathe. If I can't get my solitude, I will literally lose my mind. I know I am emotionally incapable of being even a halfway decent spouse or parent. This is one reason I have chosen to never marry or especially have children. I don't want pity here; this is the right choice for me. I enjoy and even need human interaction in small doses. However, it must be brief. I am not the sort of person who makes a good companion. I definitely don't want to be in situations where I am dependent on others. I don't want to feel that my welfare is dependent on another person's goodwill. I have been so dependent for so long; perhaps that's why dependency is so repugnant to me. I just want to be in control of my own life and my own body. I will lose my independence if I become too enmeshed with anyone. I am NOT lonely. I'm a proud loner.