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I Want Someone Who'll Stay, No Matter How Complicated I Am

This once mattered to me. To be accepted for who I am, warts and uglies and all, and to be held on to no matter what.

But now, I would rather someone leaves than get hurt because of the uglier sides of me. In fact, I do not want the responsibility of causing anyone any pain and it is certainly stressful to be something I am not just so I do not hurt someone because of how I am. Especially of late, when I am all over the place with emotions or a sudden lack of emotions, like a yo-yo.

I feel myself getting detached, from holding on to anything or anyone. I am happy while it is there and try to make the most of it. But it is okay, if it no longer is. Inevitably, we really are all alone, so why hold something so tight that was only ever going to be temporary in the long run anyway?

No bitterness, when someones path is no longer aligned to mine. I am sure they gave their best. That is enough.
Everyone has an ugly side to them E. It's never always rainbows and butterflies. The ones who matter look past all that. You don't have to hold on to them if they want to leave. Just be happy that it lasted. But pushing them away otherwise is a choice you make
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@TheFlash: Yeah. Most times its 'bring it on bich' and then some times its 'peace, gimme some time you bich''. LOL
@Aidolovemostofyourthoughts: Hahahah I can totally relate to that ! 😂 fokin mood swings ! .-.
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@TheFlash: 😂😂 I knew you would. Hence the phrasing. :D
Well, you haven't run me off yet. Even if you keep me waiting in the rain at Heathrow, while you futilely attempt to start your BMW.😜😘
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😂
Eh you are sweet.
Lol Lady Aido, I am growing increasingly bleary-eyed by the second.🌙💤😴 Good night.
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@Mav1962: Sleep well. :)
AliceInBlunderland · 36-40, F
Such is life unfortunately. Though for different reasons in my case, mostly medical. I can personally relate to this quite a bit.
KingofPizza2 · 36-40, M
People always surprise us, in both good ways and bad. Don't hit eject on them prematurely okay?
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:) Okay
LachrymoseLamer · 51-55, M
LachrymoseLamer · 51-55, M
@Aidolovemostofyourthoughts: It's a sad post.
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@LachrymoseLamer: Hugs.
LachrymoseLamer · 51-55, M
@Aidolovemostofyourthoughts: *big hug*
Equanimous · 51-55, M
👫 still.
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:)
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If only... What?
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I think that no person is without pain or sadness. There is no one that is purely happy. Everyone will have what they consider warts and uglies...just in differing degrees. And saying that we are [i]all[/i] deserving of love.

Look at the flip side, if there is someone you love, and they think they are unloveable and they want to avoid you so they don't cause you pain, would you quietly accept this or would you continue to love them?

What if one develops an illness, would it be right for them to detach themselves to save the other from pain?

Would any if this be different if you were in a long term relationship?
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Detachment, for me, is not a conscious choice.
It's just happening.
Something that used to matter to me once, no longer does.
And perhaps because its happening as it is, I am finding it easier to let go.
@Aidolovemostofyourthoughts: this saddens me, this is very much how I have felt for the past couple of years, and it is not something I wish for you.
I understand this to be part of my depression. What has been made clear to me though is that despite how I am others are still emotionally attached to me.
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@InOtterWords: Yes, they are. I think my lows are a part of my PTSD. But eh..time will tell. :) Thank you.

 
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