I Worry Too Much

I hope we can still be friends after this storm passes. Thats what I think to myself: what if they never though of me as a friend, i've just trapped myself again in this bubble of a delusion as I wait for the storm to pass by. I guess i've deluded myself every time into thinking that there is someone waiting to welcome me back to a sunnier side of life.

You know, sometimes I just feel like life is so bleak and there are fire works going off in my head and just wonder [i]who[/i] keeps on lighting them and then I realize its me. Again its just me...