Wishing you all the best. It is really difficult when we don't have the support system we need. Yet we find a place like this and our problems are in a better perspective. You have made the right decision by coming here and if you ever need to talk, feel free to send a pm anytime

Try doing introspection. It help me a lot to change. One thing is sure the change is permanent when we , ourselves, do necessary changes in our mind set and thinking. OTher people can support or facilitate. :)