I Worry Too Much
I have always been carefree all my life until I entered the ever-anxious world of motherhood. I never thought that a particular stage in your life could do such a change on the way you think and react to things. I just feel like perfection is truly an impossible thing to achieve and that anything can be ruined by the most subtle things.
I mean, I don't want to identify myself as one of the overacting and overprotective moms out there--but in truth, I lead the club. Being someone who is responsible for another person's wellbeing is such a lot of work for me, more of emotionally and mentally rather than physically.
I find myself emotionally exhausted whenever my daughter is not well, thinking about how hard it is for her to undergo such hard times at such a young age. But I thought that, well, we've all gone through that. However, Moms like me would only want their child to experience everything that's good in this world. Anything that could harm them is a big no-no--or even anything that could possibly harm them.
I don't want to be such a dramatic mother, being all worried even when there's nothing to worry about but I just can't seem to shook of the constant anxiety. So I turn to God whenever I feel like my legs are shaking because of that anxiety. I ask him to help me and my daughter to be strong and face whatever challenges that would come to us. I let my child talk to him and ask for his guidance. There's just nothing else to do when you're so desperate to make everything right.
I just wish that I could be a stronger person in raising my daughter. But I guess, every Mom is vulnerable. Because in order to love, you have to be vulnerable and face anything that life throws at you.
I mean, I don't want to identify myself as one of the overacting and overprotective moms out there--but in truth, I lead the club. Being someone who is responsible for another person's wellbeing is such a lot of work for me, more of emotionally and mentally rather than physically.
I find myself emotionally exhausted whenever my daughter is not well, thinking about how hard it is for her to undergo such hard times at such a young age. But I thought that, well, we've all gone through that. However, Moms like me would only want their child to experience everything that's good in this world. Anything that could harm them is a big no-no--or even anything that could possibly harm them.
I don't want to be such a dramatic mother, being all worried even when there's nothing to worry about but I just can't seem to shook of the constant anxiety. So I turn to God whenever I feel like my legs are shaking because of that anxiety. I ask him to help me and my daughter to be strong and face whatever challenges that would come to us. I let my child talk to him and ask for his guidance. There's just nothing else to do when you're so desperate to make everything right.
I just wish that I could be a stronger person in raising my daughter. But I guess, every Mom is vulnerable. Because in order to love, you have to be vulnerable and face anything that life throws at you.
