I Am Scared of Relationships
Most of the time I can never tell if I hate people or if im just that scared of relationships because most of the time when I get a chance to form one (platonic) I start to feel (this is kinda mean but what ever) disgust and fear. Sometimes people say one thing and it makes me never want to talk to them again and I hate myself for being so judgmental but other times I think could we be friends? No. they would most likely judge me as others have if I tell them my secrets.
So most of the time in real life I try my best to distance myself from people and when I feel someone may be getting close to me I push them away. I know this probably isn't true with all "friends" but most of them leave or push you aside after the find real friends. At least from my experience
So most of the time in real life I try my best to distance myself from people and when I feel someone may be getting close to me I push them away. I know this probably isn't true with all "friends" but most of them leave or push you aside after the find real friends. At least from my experience