I Have Random Thoughts

[ Downstairs ]

Once again, the news are the same. This is not the time for promotion. I still need to work on coming up with a robust solution. I still need to anticipate the issues. I still need to work on the language.

Working on the language in the most demoralizing part of the whole deal. I still need to learn to use simpler expressions. I still need to bring clarity in the way I speak and write.

The thing is that I'm so tired. I'm tired of learning. I'm tired or polishing my skills. I'm tired of working on improving more and more. The real deal is that I do not feel like doing any of this any more.

Nevertheless, I must continue. I still need to stay at least two more years so I can cover the education expenses for my kids.

Regardless, I feel like I just want to drop, lay down, and stay like that for a really long while. I feel like not caring. Period.

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JerseyGal · 51-55, F

I understand. You get to a point where you feel you've done all you can, yet everyone still wants more. And, you've had enough; you're tired.

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JerseyGal · 51-55, F

@Ghauzy You're welcome. Sometimes it helps a bit just to get what you are feeling out.
I used to do that by pen and paper years ago before I had a cell or computer.

Ghauzy · 51-55, M

Thank you. I'm truly convinced that wording out what you have helps give it its course and process it as needed.

Ghauzy · 51-55, M

@JerseyGal Actually writing this did help - https://similarworlds.com/4537559-I-Write-Poetry/2511011-Black-Matter-The-clouds-were-dark-the-air-was-cold

PrivatePeeks · 26-30, F

Your post lacks context. Mentioning what you do would help. Are you a writer at a news service or something?

Ghauzy · 51-55, M

@PrivatePeeks Sometimes all that is needed is just to tell the story. Just to let the words out is enough to honor the down feelings and let them be until a different time comes.

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