I Am Not Who I Used to Be
I have been super cute my whole life. Not a smoking hottie, just a sweet girl next door type. Extremely friendly, outgoing, fun, charismatic... Charm and wit literally ooze out of my pores... I never met anyone who didn't want to be around me. Its just how I've always been and I don't know how to be anything else...
I think I died in that car accident and now I'm living like Goldie Hawn and Meryl Streep in Death Becomes Her. In the two years since the accident, I've put on 25lbs. (Well, I actually put on closer to 45 lbs. But I lost 20 of it after I healed from the crash) and I feel like I've aged 20 years instead of just 2.
I don't know how to be this person! The way I used to be, the things that I used to say... People thought I was cute and funny and I could always get anyone to smile... Now, I do the exact same thing and I come off creepy! God I hope that this is all in my head! I really just can't figure out how to be old...
I think I died in that car accident and now I'm living like Goldie Hawn and Meryl Streep in Death Becomes Her. In the two years since the accident, I've put on 25lbs. (Well, I actually put on closer to 45 lbs. But I lost 20 of it after I healed from the crash) and I feel like I've aged 20 years instead of just 2.
I don't know how to be this person! The way I used to be, the things that I used to say... People thought I was cute and funny and I could always get anyone to smile... Now, I do the exact same thing and I come off creepy! God I hope that this is all in my head! I really just can't figure out how to be old...
41-45, F
