I Am Suffering With Borderline Personality Disorder

Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing; broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She never knows what to expect; never knows when a trigger is going to come, but when it does, it comes in at full swing. Trigger.... Result; paranoia.... Then back to normal. Trigger.... Result; anger.... Then back to normal. Trigger..... Result; emptiness and despair heavier than any other negative emotion. Sometimes to much to bear. Result.... Impulsivity; binging, self harming, screaming; exhausting. This disorder drains the life out of her body. It transforms her into something uncontrollable. Something only time itself can heal. The peak of it all is the worst because she becomes something unreal; something different. Triggers are everywhere, and they are tough to avoid.... Emotions, triggers, adrenaline, life.....