I'm An Open Book If You Care To Read Me
I just need to spill some thoughts...pour out some emotions...and not unload them on anyone :P Sometimes you just need to get it out and not really talk about it, ya know? Who wants to be a Debbie Downer anyway?
I’m feeling unliked at work. Now, I know they like me....I just don’t think they LIKE me...and I don’t know why I allow this to hurt my feelings. I mean, I feel the same way about most of them. We just aren’t alike. You can’t be everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s ok. But still, sometimes it hurts...especially when you’re the one on the outside looking in. Honestly, most days it doesn’t really bother me. I get along with everyone at work, we have a good time and it’s a good work environment. Days go smoothly. But, there are so many days where they all congregate together to do stuff or just waste time :P And they never choose to do it around me. In fact, they generally just act like I’m not even there. There’ve been several times where I’m the only one working because they’re all goofing around somewhere and they KNOW they’re leaving me to get all the work done. All of that’s whatever though.
I think I only get upset over one person. I’ve been trying to be her friend for about 2 years now. I’m always so good to her and I always go out of my way to try to be a good friend to her. We’ve only hung out outside of work 1 time....and that was after I cried one day because she kept bailing on me over and over and over again and my feelings finally got crushed one day at work. I know, super lame. Lol. I’m pretty embarrassed I cried about it. So yeah, we hung out once after that....since then, it’s been the same as before. Me constantly being nice and offering invitations and plans....but she never does anything to make anything happen. There comes a point you have to realize youre just throwing yourself at a person and they’re not interested. It’s just frustrating, because there are periods where I really do feel like she likes me and that our friendship is strengthening....and I just need to be patient and give her time. But you know, a person either likes you or they don’t. And if a person leaves you feeling constantly uncertain and insecure, they are not worth the time at all. You’ve got to know when to cut your losses and stop acting like a clingy fool.
It really hurts when I see her ignore me and just act indifferent, then when everyone else is around she lights up and becomes so animated. I don’t get it! But ya know, she just doesn’t click with me clearly...and that’s ok. I have plenty of people who are crazy about me, and they’re wonderful friends that I truly adore. So there’s no point mourning over this :P Now if I can just stop getting mad when I get ignored and forgotten about. The other day they all just left without me...didn’t even tell me bye. I had no idea where everyone went! So today, I did the same. And from now on, I’m done throwing myself at anyone. I’m freaking awesome. If anyone wants my company, they can work for it. I’ve got to stop being so vulnerable.
I’m feeling unliked at work. Now, I know they like me....I just don’t think they LIKE me...and I don’t know why I allow this to hurt my feelings. I mean, I feel the same way about most of them. We just aren’t alike. You can’t be everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s ok. But still, sometimes it hurts...especially when you’re the one on the outside looking in. Honestly, most days it doesn’t really bother me. I get along with everyone at work, we have a good time and it’s a good work environment. Days go smoothly. But, there are so many days where they all congregate together to do stuff or just waste time :P And they never choose to do it around me. In fact, they generally just act like I’m not even there. There’ve been several times where I’m the only one working because they’re all goofing around somewhere and they KNOW they’re leaving me to get all the work done. All of that’s whatever though.
I think I only get upset over one person. I’ve been trying to be her friend for about 2 years now. I’m always so good to her and I always go out of my way to try to be a good friend to her. We’ve only hung out outside of work 1 time....and that was after I cried one day because she kept bailing on me over and over and over again and my feelings finally got crushed one day at work. I know, super lame. Lol. I’m pretty embarrassed I cried about it. So yeah, we hung out once after that....since then, it’s been the same as before. Me constantly being nice and offering invitations and plans....but she never does anything to make anything happen. There comes a point you have to realize youre just throwing yourself at a person and they’re not interested. It’s just frustrating, because there are periods where I really do feel like she likes me and that our friendship is strengthening....and I just need to be patient and give her time. But you know, a person either likes you or they don’t. And if a person leaves you feeling constantly uncertain and insecure, they are not worth the time at all. You’ve got to know when to cut your losses and stop acting like a clingy fool.
It really hurts when I see her ignore me and just act indifferent, then when everyone else is around she lights up and becomes so animated. I don’t get it! But ya know, she just doesn’t click with me clearly...and that’s ok. I have plenty of people who are crazy about me, and they’re wonderful friends that I truly adore. So there’s no point mourning over this :P Now if I can just stop getting mad when I get ignored and forgotten about. The other day they all just left without me...didn’t even tell me bye. I had no idea where everyone went! So today, I did the same. And from now on, I’m done throwing myself at anyone. I’m freaking awesome. If anyone wants my company, they can work for it. I’ve got to stop being so vulnerable.
