I Need a Break
This is just a reassurance to my good friends here on SW...I am fine, and I will be back...hopefully in two or three days.
I need to take a breather. I've noticed a change in myself due to stress.
I don't think of myself as horribly stressed because my life is unusually calm for the most part...but I think my good friend being so close to death...and the months of pain from my hand and wrist, untreated because of Covid19...and now this internal threat to my country, which I love, by George Soros and Antifa... it's all too much, and I can't fix any of it.
I've noticed that I am getting very angry about politics, and that's normal...but now, instead of blocking people who are stupid or ignorant, I am becoming verbally abusive toward them. That's not me...and it's not who I want to be. I am even slipping in my language...and I want my language to be better than that of the ex from whom I learned every nasty word.
I am crying right now, listening to the news, hearing about a black retired police officer who was killed last night in Louisiana...shot dead point blank...77 years old, and about the evil people on social media who are celebrating his death.
There is just too much pain for me right now, and I need to take a few days and read, and cook, and get pissed off about other things...like the way women were so disrespected in the 1800's that their maiden names are never mentioned in ANY record...so their families are lost in the sands of time.
I just need to be myself for a day or two or three. I love my friends here, and those whose posts I normally visit...please don't worry about me. I will right myself. I'll be back soon, and then you will probably WISH I had been gone a bit longer...馃槀馃槀馃槀
I need to take a breather. I've noticed a change in myself due to stress.
I don't think of myself as horribly stressed because my life is unusually calm for the most part...but I think my good friend being so close to death...and the months of pain from my hand and wrist, untreated because of Covid19...and now this internal threat to my country, which I love, by George Soros and Antifa... it's all too much, and I can't fix any of it.
I've noticed that I am getting very angry about politics, and that's normal...but now, instead of blocking people who are stupid or ignorant, I am becoming verbally abusive toward them. That's not me...and it's not who I want to be. I am even slipping in my language...and I want my language to be better than that of the ex from whom I learned every nasty word.
I am crying right now, listening to the news, hearing about a black retired police officer who was killed last night in Louisiana...shot dead point blank...77 years old, and about the evil people on social media who are celebrating his death.
There is just too much pain for me right now, and I need to take a few days and read, and cook, and get pissed off about other things...like the way women were so disrespected in the 1800's that their maiden names are never mentioned in ANY record...so their families are lost in the sands of time.
I just need to be myself for a day or two or three. I love my friends here, and those whose posts I normally visit...please don't worry about me. I will right myself. I'll be back soon, and then you will probably WISH I had been gone a bit longer...馃槀馃槀馃槀
