I did this... [I Am Depressed]

I hugged my patient’s son for giving me my gift, alongside his sister, but it did not feel good because I was upset that I was NOT hugging Papi. I have some strong feelings for Papi. I really LOVE him. I know that Papi will NEVER love me because I’m not a model and I’m not beautiful, but I love him and I always will, but the Russians and the Hindus and Sikhs of India messed me up by drugging me with steroids to stunt my growth and make me look ugly and those people don’t have a heart, I don’t know where their heart is, they just watch me and out of vindictiveness, they curse me more than I’m already cursed.