I Am Depressed

this god damn ridiculousness is actually depressing me. my mom needs nurses - the agency wont allow anyone to come but they've been sucking anyway (so is that really different) - the state people are being assholes about nursing - my mom is so tired becuz shes not getting a break becuz she does everything - im a inconvenience to my mom at night so i want morphine to knock me out so i [b]will[/b] just sleep but she doesnt want me to "use" it - that will be a tricky situation how to get it every week so i sleep enough nights until i get a new night nurse. becuz of this its causing [i][b]bullshit[/b][/i] to happen and im definitely feeling the pressure of the stress of it