Honestly from my experience with that I regret having ever tried something like that, makes me sad now. If its gotten to that point then you've gotta use it as a catalyst for changing what you're not happy about. If we're not afraid of death then we shouldn't be afraid to live. Hope you feel better soon.
But you are here, you obviously weren’t meant to go. Please think about things, I get depressed sometimes and know it’s difficult. It can be done though 🤗