I Am Complicated
I Get Lost Sometimes (written 7/26/16 12:02am)
I've had so many thoughts run through my head today. It's not like this is a new thing, but I've never been as aware of it as I am in this moment. I've taken to listening to classical music on my commutes to and from work, and it's quickly becoming a spiritual experience.
I've realized that the music brings me back to the present moment. I'm able to appreciate the scenery around me, form my thoughts more clearly, and really process what's happening around me. I stopped listening to the typical radio one day when I realized I was singing all of the words to a song that I didn't even like... that means that I had listened to that song enough times to learn every word. It also means that I was so disconnected from myself that I was singing the lyrics to a song that actually irritated me... how does that happen? It was disturbing to think of how quickly I'd become a group-thinking robot, mechanically driving my car to work.
I was instantly reminded of the Lego Movie.
Anyways, I've been having lots of thoughts lately, of philosophical nature. For a moment it bothered me that most of these thoughts are transitory, and forgotten by lunchtime. Then I stopped to think, 'How would my life be different if I could remember all of those fleeting insights?' Would my life be better? Worse for it?
Do we all have brief glimpses of clarity beyond this curtain of our distracted actuality, only to be pulled back into the now of our feeble bodies and minds?
I don't know... and I guess it's better that way, right?
I've had so many thoughts run through my head today. It's not like this is a new thing, but I've never been as aware of it as I am in this moment. I've taken to listening to classical music on my commutes to and from work, and it's quickly becoming a spiritual experience.
I've realized that the music brings me back to the present moment. I'm able to appreciate the scenery around me, form my thoughts more clearly, and really process what's happening around me. I stopped listening to the typical radio one day when I realized I was singing all of the words to a song that I didn't even like... that means that I had listened to that song enough times to learn every word. It also means that I was so disconnected from myself that I was singing the lyrics to a song that actually irritated me... how does that happen? It was disturbing to think of how quickly I'd become a group-thinking robot, mechanically driving my car to work.
I was instantly reminded of the Lego Movie.
Anyways, I've been having lots of thoughts lately, of philosophical nature. For a moment it bothered me that most of these thoughts are transitory, and forgotten by lunchtime. Then I stopped to think, 'How would my life be different if I could remember all of those fleeting insights?' Would my life be better? Worse for it?
Do we all have brief glimpses of clarity beyond this curtain of our distracted actuality, only to be pulled back into the now of our feeble bodies and minds?
I don't know... and I guess it's better that way, right?
31-35, F
