I Don't Know Anymore

I don't believe in much anymore. I feel lost, confused & much too often disappointed. It's like every painful memory continues to haunt me. I can't see how I can possibly take anymore of it, or how many more tears I will have to cry... People continue to hurt me and use me. I can't remember what real love feels like anymore. I always get let down and made a fool of for falling for the lies but still trying anyways. Talked bad about anyway it goes, though I am as honest, faithful & loyal as I can be right now. I do my best to show love & only want to make everyone happy. I guess it's time for a change. I don't think it makes me selfish or wrong to start putting myself & my happiness first.

It's whoever is left standing by my side, that won't betray me... that's the kind of person you want to share your soul with. That's the person who has felt the same pain before. They can heal your heart.