I Need to Be Honest to Myself

I liked to think that these mental problems have only really been effecting me for the last few months but I need to stop kidding myself. I've been having these problems since last year when I was going through my health issues. I was offered therapy after my treatments but I turned it down because I just wanted my medical problems to be done and over with. I went about thinking I didn't need it and that I was all better but by not taking therapy right then and there, I've probably only made things worse for myself. Hell, I could very well have been completely better by now if I had just took it back then when it was offered. Now here I am having anxiety attacks, mental breakdowns and unmotivated to even get out of bed because I get so depressed. I'm not asking for sympathy so please spare me any condolences. If you couldn't tell, I brought this all on myself anyway.