I Was a Child of Drug Addicted Parents

My mom was an alcoholic since I was 5 and a drug addict since I was 8. She died when I was 16 and my feelings about her are pretty complicated.

My grandma recently died and people are mentioning that her childhood wasn't all bad. That you have to let go of the bad memories.

I have a hard time with that.

When someone dies you put them on a pedastal and I can't deal with that. I can't deal with denying the truth of it. That she was not a good person because of the alcohol and drugs. It leaves a bad taste in my mouth. My feelings are so complicated especially since she's dead.