I really don't know where to begin. At both this post and a relationship. I can very easily talk to people but I've never really felt something. Often I've had parents thinking I was interested in their daughter but I'm just really good at being "nice", forming conversations, helping out, etc. On top of all of that, there are certain things, expectations I suppose, that are really only getting worse as I'm getting older. It's not that there are more and more, it's that what I expected years ago was "common" while as a person gets older, becomes less so. Not to mention that as I've gotten older, I have less and less social interactions outside randomly meeting people in stores, on the road, etc. I've never really looked for one actively because I always thought that if it's meant to be it'll happen. But again, as I'm getting older and definitely not getting better looking ... I feel like it might be getting too late.
Not that I mind that much, since I know that I'll have to give up A LOT and I'm not sure if I'm willing to. But sometimes I do crave for someone to be there when I come home. Someone to talk to, have dinner with. Someone to cuddle as I fall asleep (just to eventually kick her/him out of bed cuz I can't lay still XD), especially on days like Christmas where being alone is really f*cking sad XD