I Dont Ever Feel Happy Anymore

i’m at that point where i feel every emotion all at once but never happy. like i’m stressed all day and then when i finally have time to unwind i don’t enjoy it i just complain about how bored i am. i’m never satisfied and i always find something to be angry or sad about. i feel like life moving on but i’m constantly held back by my own emotions. i feel like i’m also scared to feel happy so i don’t let myself fearing that i’ll jinx it or ruin it.