I Am Healing Myself And Changing

I've finally calmed down and reflected on myself. Its been like four years since I sat down and did this. Ive been fine usually and pretty good with my morals and decisions. Lately I haven't been though. I'm now learning new things about myself and how bad I've been. To the people I love and to myself. I've done some damage and have lost a friend to that, but everyone else is ok with me. Even the people I tired to hurt the most. I guess they really love me. I have to learn to accept people dor who they are and forgive more. I also need to figure out how to deal with some of my problems. I hope in time I will get to a point where I can handle dating my ex. I love him very much, but I'm not ready for it. He's just going to be one of my best friends for a long time till were both in a good place to start. But even if that never comes, I still love him enough to just be friends.