It doesn't matter if angels and demons exist. I'll admit that I have gifts, but I won't say anything about any visions or anything. What I will say is this; darkness and light are about balance. Everyone has a taste of darkness. I admit I have a dark side, but I embrace it and I don't allow it to bother me from living my life. Just live your life, and use your time to better yourself. What matters is what you want to do in the here and now. If you want to become bad, then you should have a purpose behind it. Just listen to your heart. Bring a little love and joy into your life. It is all up to you how you want to deal with in it.