I Am An Incarnated Angel
Hello, I have many reasons to believe that I'm an incarnated angel. But I also have many reasons to believe that I'm destined to something evil.
I often dream with a white house in the middle of trees, like in a fancy farm. Every time that I go there in the dream I remember that it's the first time, and I love there I feel in peace and happy there, feel like its my home.
I have memories, that never happened in this life. I have them sice I can remember.
One of them, I'm under a sky full os stars, I feel like there is many people around me, and that I'm baby and someone is carrying me, I feel very confortable, when I was child whenever I felt afraid I thought about this memory to calm me down.
Another memory that I have is I'm standing in front of a huge door, its like those church windows, only that its seems like a door, Its a good memory too.
In other memory I'm in a room, small and with clean colors, there's a double bed in the middle, a mirror and a paint. I feel that I just marriged and its around century 17, 18.
Another one I'm in a poor, small house in middle of nowhere, like there's nothing around, like a country house, I think I'm child.
In other memory I'm walking with a boy, I think he's my brother, we are walking toward a house, I feel that I know there's a vulcan near, the ground it's craggy, it's cold, really cold. There's a flower, it's purple or blue with orange details.
if anyone else have some memory simliar to mine, please contact me.
A name came to my mind: Asle or Asele or Asale, I'm not sure how its written, but it's something like this, If you ever heard please tell me.
Some months ago, I wrote some symbols and then a voice in my head translate it. I don't know if it's a real languag or what.
My friend dreamt that there was a kinda of army after us, they forced her translate those symbols. A couple days later the army appears here, near to my house, they kept just watching, waiting for something,and there was nothing in the news, maybe I'm just overreacting, but I don't believe in coinscidence. She dreamt again about these army this time, they were after a child, that she and a man was protecting, this child had powers and people called "devil's child" for that, this child was me.
I always dream awake (like imagination) that there's a man helping us, maybe it's just a coinscidece, or nothing.
I also found a key, and I was told that there's an angel called Machkiel keepping what the key open. I had never heard about him. and he "exists" and is a guardian angel, he protect the 6th heaven' door or something.
I can make things happen, or maybe guess, sometimes it's take seconds, sometimes years. I didn't know my sister, only her name and I'm not sure if I knew that she was a teacher or not. I started to wish, dream (awake) that I met her in the school, every new school that I was, every new teacher that was introduced I exepected that was gonna be her, and one day was. This is just one exemple.
Although I have all incarnated angels "symptom" I have darkness, darkness has been around me since forever. When I look back, I feel like I was never pure, there were always someone/thing corrupting me. And me and my family has always been religious type, when I was child I used to go in church every sunday. Nowdays I feel darkness is inside me part of me, I as many feel somehting is coming, I'm not afraid of what its, I'm afraid of my role in it, I'm afraid be destined to be evil, maybe I'm not angel, maybe I'm somehting else. I just would like to know.
If anyone there's any information or similiar feelings/memories about it please tell me.
I often dream with a white house in the middle of trees, like in a fancy farm. Every time that I go there in the dream I remember that it's the first time, and I love there I feel in peace and happy there, feel like its my home.
I have memories, that never happened in this life. I have them sice I can remember.
One of them, I'm under a sky full os stars, I feel like there is many people around me, and that I'm baby and someone is carrying me, I feel very confortable, when I was child whenever I felt afraid I thought about this memory to calm me down.
Another memory that I have is I'm standing in front of a huge door, its like those church windows, only that its seems like a door, Its a good memory too.
In other memory I'm in a room, small and with clean colors, there's a double bed in the middle, a mirror and a paint. I feel that I just marriged and its around century 17, 18.
Another one I'm in a poor, small house in middle of nowhere, like there's nothing around, like a country house, I think I'm child.
In other memory I'm walking with a boy, I think he's my brother, we are walking toward a house, I feel that I know there's a vulcan near, the ground it's craggy, it's cold, really cold. There's a flower, it's purple or blue with orange details.
if anyone else have some memory simliar to mine, please contact me.
A name came to my mind: Asle or Asele or Asale, I'm not sure how its written, but it's something like this, If you ever heard please tell me.
Some months ago, I wrote some symbols and then a voice in my head translate it. I don't know if it's a real languag or what.
My friend dreamt that there was a kinda of army after us, they forced her translate those symbols. A couple days later the army appears here, near to my house, they kept just watching, waiting for something,and there was nothing in the news, maybe I'm just overreacting, but I don't believe in coinscidence. She dreamt again about these army this time, they were after a child, that she and a man was protecting, this child had powers and people called "devil's child" for that, this child was me.
I always dream awake (like imagination) that there's a man helping us, maybe it's just a coinscidece, or nothing.
I also found a key, and I was told that there's an angel called Machkiel keepping what the key open. I had never heard about him. and he "exists" and is a guardian angel, he protect the 6th heaven' door or something.
I can make things happen, or maybe guess, sometimes it's take seconds, sometimes years. I didn't know my sister, only her name and I'm not sure if I knew that she was a teacher or not. I started to wish, dream (awake) that I met her in the school, every new school that I was, every new teacher that was introduced I exepected that was gonna be her, and one day was. This is just one exemple.
Although I have all incarnated angels "symptom" I have darkness, darkness has been around me since forever. When I look back, I feel like I was never pure, there were always someone/thing corrupting me. And me and my family has always been religious type, when I was child I used to go in church every sunday. Nowdays I feel darkness is inside me part of me, I as many feel somehting is coming, I'm not afraid of what its, I'm afraid of my role in it, I'm afraid be destined to be evil, maybe I'm not angel, maybe I'm somehting else. I just would like to know.
If anyone there's any information or similiar feelings/memories about it please tell me.
26-30, F
