I Battle Self-hatred, Anxiety, And Depression
Hello...
I pretend to be fine on the outside all throughout the day. I cleaned I cooked, I took care of my baby. I felt good today, I did something, I felt like supermom. But in reality all I did was do things that any mom would do on a normal basis. It's different for me because I haven't had the energy to do anything extra besides trying to keep my LO happy,fed and cared for. Everything else in my life is on the back burner.
But today, I felt better,I had energy. Now that it's night time and everything and everyone is settled,I'm having panic attacks. WHY!? I thought I was getting better..why do I feel so restless. I feel like it's hard to breathe. Why can't I have a good day and not feel like this afterwards. There was no trigger. Nothing happened except that I let myself relax and enjoy that I accomplished something today.
I'm so tired of this feeling.
I pretend to be fine on the outside all throughout the day. I cleaned I cooked, I took care of my baby. I felt good today, I did something, I felt like supermom. But in reality all I did was do things that any mom would do on a normal basis. It's different for me because I haven't had the energy to do anything extra besides trying to keep my LO happy,fed and cared for. Everything else in my life is on the back burner.
But today, I felt better,I had energy. Now that it's night time and everything and everyone is settled,I'm having panic attacks. WHY!? I thought I was getting better..why do I feel so restless. I feel like it's hard to breathe. Why can't I have a good day and not feel like this afterwards. There was no trigger. Nothing happened except that I let myself relax and enjoy that I accomplished something today.
I'm so tired of this feeling.
31-35, F
