I Think About Killing Myself

I am tired of cruel people. I try to be alone & they bully, kick us out & harrass us. I'd like to be in my own bubble & enjoy the internet but apparently I can't. My mom wants to kick me out of the car dai!y, she cant stand my anxieties. I don't know what to do when my parents die. No money, no house, no friends, no family etc.

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Melpomene · 26-30, F

If I ever learnt anything in life, it's that you have to work hard for everything you want. Some people are lucky to easily befriend someone or they are born in a wealthy.. and some doesn't. Life is unfair. On the other side, you wrote you want to kill yourself (I know, bad way to start). But, what about people who would miss you? Maybe there is someone who loves you (friend, crush, family.. - by what you wrote I assume they are still alive?). Also, what made you come to this point? Suicidal thoughts don't just happen out of blue. You must've had a reason to fight til now. Why stop?

DarkSillyArtistGamerGeekdddddd · 31-35, F

@MelpomeneIf working hard meant something then many farmers & agriculture workers would be rich then. My parents are sick & want to kill themselves too. The places we hang out away from the fire kicked us out. Where can we go? Stay in the the hot or cold car? Pigs to!d us we can't park overnight. Do you know how bad it is to be homeless?

Melpomene · 26-30, F

@DarkSillyArtistGamerGeekdddddd Luckily, I don't. Though how do you have internet? Also, lots of people who succeeded and have fortunes now, were homeless. But they searched for a job and didn't give up. If you're not capable in fighting for yourself maybe you don't belong in this cruel world. Yet, we all have our ups and down, in one way or another. What's important is to keep going and one day we should be rewarded for it (karma, God, universe, whatever someone believes in..)

DarkSillyArtistGamerGeekdddddd · 31-35, F

@Melpomene We hang outside businesses in the car. I don't need money, we need people to help. I believe in trading services, items & knowledge instead of money. I do some of it online. Its harder in person and well, flakes. What about the meek shall inherit the Earth?