I Have Serious Issues With Overeating

It started at about seven years old...and turned to an eating disorder at 12.... Turned back into overeating at 18... It's like there's something missing...company I've tried to replace...I miss the feeling of being little and hatred of food...always playing with it instead..only wanting broccoli....I know it's not bc of body imsge I need help because I seriously believe what im doing is a sin...any tips?