I Feel Sad When Bad Things Happen To Good People

I'm growing up still. I feel immense pain about my childhood. I wish things could have been different for me. But they are what they are. I feel so lonely sometimes. So deeply sad. It feels like it will never fill up. A hole that is so deep. I wish one day to find a soul mate that can make life better. Make everything ok. Make me feel like I'm less fragile than the porcelain doll I feel like.