I Have Avoidant Personality Disorder

It's been way more intense the last 2 months as my life just seems to carry much more weight than I ever assumed possible.

I don't talk to anyone.

Basically reaching out to me is an impossible feat.

I use my online accounts as avenues to vent and express and always end up talking to people on them and then pushing them away. It's not on purpose, I just don't have the will power anymore and more than that, I fear that they'll leave me anyways, so why not just cut ties from the get go.

I'm tired of being hurt and used.

I'm tired of feeling not good enough and I'm tired of the fact that I can't just end it because of my daughter.

I have no one and while a lot of it is my own fault, I also think that's just the way my path was set up.