I Am Dissapointed

After all these sacrifices, I feel so disappointed with my children. They are careless and ignorant about important matter. They are adults and suppose to behave responsibly, I should not need to keep reminding my son to go to college to get up in the morning. I do not like my son anymore as he turns to be an adult. He has never sent a greeting on Christmas, New year and birthday. He greeted me on Chinese New Year because he received money in a red envelope, that he is interested in. This means he does not care. I start to see my exs partner attitudes which they inherit from their father. My children have never been closed to their father. My exs left us when my youngest child was a baby and oldest 6-year-old. They were rarely having a contact with their father. I cannot believe that they have his attitudes.

My daughter married a Muslim man which I had totally disagreed with her decision. She lied to me that he was a Christian which I had never believed it.
We talk through social media but she refuses my help as I ask for a divorce paper as a proof that she ends the relationship. She is continuing to lie to me. I do not want to interfere anymore with her business.

I am not a brilliant mother. I know I have faults but I always plan the best for my children. I have never wanted a disaster in their life but they trample my kindness and good heart like a junk. They think that I am useless and unimportant. My son rewards my good heart and kindness with nasty attitudes and expletive words.
I am regretted that I pregnant twice. If I could turn back time I would sterilise my womb and never had brought out any child.