I Am Lost and Confused and Devastated

My Story...........
[b]Hell, almost everyone here knows my story..it's been all over EP...but for those who don't know, I met and fell in love with a friend on EP. I fell so deeply in love with this man, I left my 20 year marriage, I left my mom and dad when he was having bypass surgery, I left my kids (all grown), I left my job, I left everything I knew. And he did nothing but lie...about everything.....everything. I forgave his lies...he was sooooo thankful!! [/b][b]He told me every day how gorgeous I was, but never wanted to make love to me. The promise that he could support me was a complete fabrication, he complained all the time that we had no money, although I saw the checkbook , and knew what was there. That's the whole reason I left..so that he could afford to get the meds he needed, and pay his bills. Since I've been here, he has continually broken his word to me, ignored me, disappeared on me..all the while insisting he loves me..and still says so...HA! Today he says he has a love interest....well, of course he does..I've been gone two whole weeks!!! He's returning to the life he had before he met me, and my life will never be the same.....[/b]

[b]Penny WEBB

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Lonesurvivor · 61-69, F

Thank you...in fact, I have forgiven myself. As I said before, no one knows all the things that contribute to the failure of a marriage, except the two people in it. There were many mistakes on both sides. Yes...I WAS the one who cheated...but there are other forms of betrayal besides cheating. I have moved on, now, am divorcing the husband I reference in this story....written about nine months ago...and am currently engaged to a fellow EPeep, Tigerzback. We met here over a year ago, long before this unfortunate story I relate to you here. Did I make a mistake in judgment in whom I chose? Yes..I undoubtedly did...and many would say it was my just desserts.....but I did not make a mistake in leaving the marriage. It was dead and over long ago. My method may have been flawed, but I do not regret for one minute looking for happiness.....life is too short.

Penny